i am pissed off for no reason.

my mum is away in bc. she has only been gone since yesterday morning, but i miss her like crazy. when she is five minutes away i never talk to her.

i miss my friends from turkey.

i am overwhelmed by my life, which is kinda pathetic, considering how easy i have it.

i miss jeremy. i wonder why i always miss jeremy when i get really really stressed.

i don’t want to go home.

i don’t want to be here, trapped at work. sometimes i think i hate my job. sometimes i think i am just an unhappy person, and i will like my job more when i figure out how to more emotionally and mentally stable.

i want to be left alone.

i want to go swimming, but i hate lakes and over-chlorinated indoor pools. wow, am i ever spoiled.

i want to eat healthy, feel healthy, lose weight.

i really want to be left alone. i need a vacation, like away from EVERYTHING, i need to get away.

…

i’m sitting at work with 23 minutes left to go before i can get out of here. when i leave this building i will panic, because i don’t want to go home, and i don’t want to go anywhere else. i suppose that’s not entirely true, but getting on a plane or a bus is not exactly an option right now, especially what with all the shit i have that needs dealing with.

fuck, why am i so angry?