i won’t get good grades for the good i did tonight (in fact i might get bad grades for not having spent the time studying…) but i feel good that i saved a day from being wasted on anxiety and immobility, which is where it was headed. that, and i gave my cranky old man of a turtle a reason to get up in the morning. i look around and almost everywhere around me is work that i have to do, responsibilities to be taken care of that are so long overdue i am ashamed. but calvin will be warmer and healthier from now on, so i can feel proud of myself.

so at least there’s that.